I NEED YOU TO SURVIVE!

NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THE PAIN I GO THROUGH

EVEN THOUGH EACH DAY IS BRAND NEW

NOT EVEN GOD SOMETIMES I THINK DON'T KNOW

HOW MUCH MY LIFE,FAMILY,SUPPOSE FRIENDS,AND MEN HAVE HURT ME SO!

I GIVE AND GIVE ALL OF MY LOVE

BECAUSE THAT'S YOUR COMMANDMENT FROM ABOVE

BUT EVEN STILL IT DOESN'T MATTER BECAUSE EVERYONE THUS FAR HAS CAUSE ME SOO MUCH HEARTACHE AND PAIN

ALWAYS TAKING MY KINDNESS FOR WEAKNESS AND MOSTLY MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE IN VAIN!

WHAT'S THE POINT IN LOVING EVERYONE SO

GOD TELL ME I WANT TO KNOW!

WHEN ALL IT'S CAUSE HEARTACHE..

THIS I CAN NO LONGER TAKE!

I TRY TO BE STRONG AND LOVE ALL ALONG!

I TRY TO FORGIVE AND FORGET

EVEN THOUGH MY HEART THEY ALL NEGLECT!

I TRY TO PRAY HOPING AND WISHING SOMEDAY..TODAY IF IT WILL ALL GO AWAY!

NOTHING THOUGH SEEMS TO WORK BUT ME FEELING PAIN AND HURT!

I HAVE FAITH YES AND I HAVE TRUST YES BUT HOW LONG CAN I HUSH?

EVERYTHING I DO IS NEVER ENOUGH!

NO REAL RELATIONSHIP I HAVE WITH MY FAMILY

DESPITE HOW MUCH I LOVE THEM SO..

EVERYONE'S ALWAYS JUDGEMENTAL..CONDEMNING AND HYPOCRITICAL..

NO ONE KNOWS ME LIKE THEY SHOULD

BUT I PRAYED THEY WOULD

HOWEVER INSTEAD I'M JUST MISUNDERSTOOD!

BY FAMILY,FRIENDS AND MOSTLY MEN

ASKING GOD WHEN WILL THIS EVER END?

YOU TRY TO OPEN YOUR HEART TO PEOPLE AND EXPRESS HOW YOU FEEL

BUT WHAT DO THEY DO THEY TELL OTHERS YOUR BUSINESS CAUSING YOU TO BE SOO BLUE!

THEN BEFORE YOU KNOW IT THE ACCUSATIONS START

CAUSING TURMOIL TO YOUR GIVING AND LOVING HEART!

BUT EACH TIME THEY DO I GIVE IT ALL TO YOU!

SOMETIMES I SAY STUPID THINGS OUT MY MOUTH

LIKE I WISH I WAS NEVER BORN!

WHAT IF SOMETHING HAPPEN TO ME?

EVERYTHING GOES WRONG HOW CAN THIS BE?

WHEN WILL I FIND LOVE?

WHEN WILL THEY SHOW BACK LOVE?

WHEN WILL THEY STOP JUDGING,CRITICIZING AND CONDEMNING ME?

WHEN WILL THINGS BE NORMAL AGAIN?

WHEN WILL THE SUN SHINE THROUGH THIS RAIN

WHEN WILL YOU STOP THIS PAIN?

WHEN CAN I SMILE AGAIN?

I'M TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY!

IM TIRED OF GETTING HURT!

I'M TIRED OF PEOPLE DISAPPOINTING ME!

I'M TIRED OF EVERYONE TRYING TO CONTROL MY LIFE!

I'M TIRED OF BEING STAB BEHIND MY BACK WITH THAT KNIFE!

JESUS WENT THROUGH SO MUCH WORSE THAN I CAN EVER IMAGINE

BUT STILL GOD WHY MUST I CONTINUE TO ENDURE THESE TRIALS

FROM PEOPLE WHO MEAN SO MUCH TO ME

KNOWING HOW MUCH IT HURTS ME GOD DON'T YOU SEE!

WHY MUST THIS EVEN BE?

WHAT'S THE PURPOSE OF IT ALL?

EACH TIME I SIT HERE AND BAWL!

MANY TIMES I FALL

UPON YOU DO I CALL!

I NEED YOU! I NEED YOU TO SURVIVE

GOD KEEP MY LOVE,HOPE,FAITH ALIVE!

IT'S SOOO HARD GOD AND I GET SOO FRUSTRATED AT TIMES AND I WANT TO JUST QUIT

THAT MY GOD IS A CONFESSION I MUST ADMIT!

I BLAME YOU ALSO AND I HAVE SOME ANGER TOWARDS YOU TOO!

HELP MY MIND TO BE RENEWED!

BUT THROUGH IT ALL I KNOW THIS MADNESS IS FOR A REASON

IT'S JUST FOR A SEASON

BUT I HAVE TO PASS THIS TEST

OR ELSE YOU WILL BRING IT BACK AGAIN NOT TO CAUSE ME ADDITIONAL STRESS

SO I CAN BE LIKE YOU AND BLESS!

SO GOD ONCE AGAIN THIS IS MY CRY

I NEED YOU TO SURVIVE!