" A Reason For Everything"

Through the stages of my life

I've encounter disappointment, rejection, persecution and strife

Many times I've questioned

My father up above what's the purpose of this all?

Praying you will answer my call..

I've confessed all these things to you

Searching and a seeking answers for the truth

What is the meaning of this?

Why am I constantly crying over all I miss?

Why was I chosen for this mission you've set forth?

A purpose, a plan for me given at birth..

So much pain I've endure

Remembering the tears night after night to you I've poured!

Crying out loud: Jesus I need thee more!

I don't always understand thy will and purpose for me on this land

Despite the confusion, struggles you've constructed a plan

Allowing me to know my life is in your hand.

There are so many situations that comes to my rememberance

Times I thank you for a second chance..

People who've done me wrong

With each let down I sang unto you a song

Rejection from different kinds of men

And those who said they were my friend!

Words spoken to me to lower my self-esteem

Have caused me at times to be bitter and mean!

Then there were those I opened my heart to

Instead of handling with care

Each one broke it into pieces

Everytime dear God it gets harder to bear..

I'm still standing strong

Wondering how much more? and how long?

Will I continue to experience this tremendous agony inside

Constantly crying out God why?

Why do this always happen to me

All I want is to be loved and understood, don't you see?

All I've asked please don't judge me, be honest and accept me for who I am!

So you may have meant it for my bad

And at times my countenance is sad

Inside my soul it is well for this I can be glad..

You are the source of my strength

No matter how trying or long the length

I will not cause my faith to sink!

I will not be persuaded to give up

Because I know with you I have more than enough!

I will not allow my negative thoughts to plague my mind

Because my life has been unfair and unkind

I will not become bitter through my testings

If I do it will hinder the out pour of your blessings

So though I may feel broken and bruised

For my heart has been torn and misused

I may not feel like praising him but I will lift my voice and sing

And always remember there's:

A reason for everything!