Fruits or Fruit- Which one Are You?

Thought of the day: Fruits or fruit which one are you?

Spoken Word Of The Day:

But when the Holy Spirit controls our lives he will produce this kind of fruit in us: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control; and here there is no conflict with Jewish laws.
 Galatians 5:22 TLB

The Bible tells us that by their fruits you shall know them (Matt 7:16)yet without all nine of them it can't be produce lest the Holy Spirit is in control and not our flesh. You see there's a rightful order: without love you can't have joy, when you get joy then you can fully have peace in all your situations and circumstances. Your peace will enable you to have long-suffering (patience) for the testings, trials and tribulations; thus your gentleness answers the strife that comes your way. Eventually; God's goodness evolves where your faith is activated enabling the Holy Spirit to control your emotions and attiitudes.

Yet your flesh will work harder to produce twice as much bad fruits which are immorality, impurity, indecency, Idolatry,sorcery,enmity,strife, jealousy,anger, selfishness,divisions,party spirit, envy, drunkenness, carousing (Galatians 5:19-20).
Your spirit man is willing yet your flesh is so weak and if we as a body of Christ don't engulf ourselves with the Fruit of the Spirit you will produce the fruits of the flesh.

Think real hard we sin every day in thoughts, words and deeds compare the above lists and see where you might fall into the categories Are you a fruit (Spirit)or Fruits (Fleshy)person? 

It is well

                                       IT IS WELL

Seeking for peace which only God can provide that relief
Running from the calling bestowed upon my life
Turmoil after turmoil nothing but strife
Yet my heart turned from the one who I was undeserving of such love
He spoke time and time again through the years
Trying to prevent the flowing of my tears
But I allowed my flesh to take control and devil had a stronghold
Over my mind, body, and spirit
My faith was weaken and became filled with fear
Of a Destiny unknown but deep down there was a groan
That wouldn't be quench, a stirring, a plead
Of my inner man begging to be let out of this sleepy slumber
However; the voice I thus ignored pouring my life more
Into a deeper black hole
Confusion, disillusionment, it went on for more than a season
Nothing could fulfill what I needed and yet still
I continue to ignore that knocking upon my heart's door
For a life empty and nothing more
Everything at one point was going just fine
Suddenly a shift of positivity in the path I was on
Instead of seeking the master's face
Ignoring the sign
Laid out in plain sight
Yet I chose to do it on my own strength and might
Soon I would realize the deceit and lies
Ending in anguish and a soulful of cries
Slipping further and further away for the sake of the call
Consequently from this pedestal I did fall.
He wasn't through with me yet
It seem I continued to fret
For such a time as this
He used a servant to minister and speak to these dry bones
To arise and be woken from sleep
Restless nights but the stirring was deep
I could no longer run from the tugging on my heart
He put the pieces of the puzzle and mended me back from the start
Restoring each day what was lost
But it came with a cost
Dying to my self, losing people who no longer edify
Because he wanted to reconcile me back to my first love
My Father God from way up above
It won't be easy but I won't quit
It will be trying but his strength will allow me to endure
The testings, trials but you it will be for your glory to be poured
So I'm saying to you this day
You have look into my eyes
You have seen what I'm am
But still your by side
Telling me I can
There's time I cause you pain and times I made mistakes
Somehow you used them all to make the I you made
Every good thing I have done
Everything I've become
Everything that's turn out right
It's because your in my life
Although I might have fell
It is well...

Give me strength to withstand this season!

Seasons are fleeting just like people
One day they can be here the next they're gone
Left wondering what you did wrong?
Was I enough? Was it something I said?
Questions plaguing in your head
Nothing is promise or constant
Only thing is love
Few have it unconditionally
Instead it's temporarily like three seasons
So much hurt, pain and feel of treason
Yet you forgive and wish them the best
Realizing this season was just another test
One of patience only God can help you complete the rest
This I must confess dear Father
In spite of all I am
Why me? This burden you endured me to bear
Others neglecting nor care
I'm busy, here today gone tomorrow is all I see and hear
At times I don't understand this master plan
Yet you told me so many times it's not for me to comprehend
Instead my child endure it through the end
Lifetime, reason and season
Help me dear Lord to distinguish the three
This I pour
All of me and all that I am
You're the only one who could fully grasp the depth of it all
As I write upon this pad
Dismissing the urge to be sad
If you went through worst than I am no exception
To the betrayal, pain, hurt and deception
Of this world we live in
Yet he who is without sin
Cast the first stone
Abba father my spirit moans
So I may never understand the reason
Give me strength to withstand this season! 

Favor in my life

As I think over all the pain I've endured
Lord I thank you for it more and more...
For you see it has made me strong
Though these tests seem dreary and long..
For all who misused me so much wider you enable me to be
For all who ridiculed me my life is a living testimony
For all the heartaches, the love in my heart no earth can shake!!
For the lies spoken against me, truth is my melody..
You see while you tried to bring me down
Jesus Christ the solid rock I found
In him I am no longer bound!
Not by insecurities,miseries or failures because he has lifted me higher
Boldy proclaim the devil is a liar, for I once was blind but now I see.
Jesus has delivered and set me free!!
So when you see my tears
It's not for the pain,heartache that is poured
However; it's a display of God's favor for all these years!!

In spite of myself you still love me unconditionally thank you for favor in my life!!!

This Is My Time

Time to stop living in a fantasy and live for me!
Time to stop with the wishful thinking and do for me!
Time to stop letting my past dictate my future and be all I can be!
Time to stop allowing men to have the control over my heart, desires and needs all the while trying to appease to them knowing their intentions aren't true..
Life takes you through many alterations and stages
Through my life, I shed so much tears, so much pain, so much blood
For what? for love, for acceptance, for comfort,for belonging, for self-worth, for importance, for a place as number one.
But these loves have thrown pain,disappointment, unaffection,selfishness, hatred, lack of love and compassion and no interest in my heart or needs.
It amazes me as I think over everything we as women put ourselves through just for the love of a man because you didn't receive this self-worth from your up bringing, but this is a cancer that is killing us slowly, because not only affects us as a whole but our future generations. It's time time to pull down these generational curses and rise up from torment of our past hurts,regrets and boldy say
That it's my time!!
As in the book of Ezekiel 37 verse 4 " Prophesy over these bones, and say to them: Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD!

So Dear God as I come to you
Broken and misused
I prophesy to these bones that have been dry up
Lord fill my cup
Renew the right spirit within me
Everything I give to thee
For the one who has never left or forsaken me
Loving me unconditionally
Something you do so naturally
For by your grace I am set free
To live in Joy abundantly
So Dry Bones arise!
Because greater is your reward in the skies..
A destiny set forth no man can alter
Don't my child dear falter
Instead pour your burdens upon the altar
For not my will but thine
because
This is my time!!

Let Me Not Slip From Your Presence Or Ever Stray

Once again the time has come

Something sudden a change that can't be undone

I don't really know how to feel about this

One thing I know there's alot of things I will miss

Destiny has been set in motion

Causing another uproar and commotion

wondering yet again how this all will turn out?

Trying my hardest to not sit and pout

This time is different from the rest

Trying not to sit here and stress

Because where I'm going God will indeed bless

A home away from home

A new place to call my own

While I am there I have to grow

Forgetting the past and reaching onto the future what I have yet to see

The only thing I can do is just be me!

I'll admit I am somewhat tense and nervous about it all

On you my God will I have to call

To gain that peace and direction that I won't fall

Everything is making sense it seems to me

God has ordained it all so Tricia let it be

Your path and life is not according to your wants and desires but to his will

Something needing to be fulfill

Only time will tell of this tale

Truly a test you can either pass or fail

So many questions I am pondering tonight

Hoping and praying with all my might

This journey I have yet to begun will it be right?

As I said before only time will tell of this

Too bad I can't be closer is my wish..

Oh well! no time to dwell on that

Something that is a hard cold fact...

So as the months inch closer to my destination

Somewhere far already set will be my next permanent duty station

I will lean on the rock that is higher than I

For as your word say

Thy ways are not my ways

Thy thoughts are not my thoughts

Everyday faithfully this I pray

Come what may

Let me not slip from your presence or ever stray!

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This Is the Day

I know this is the day that the Lord has made

I know I should be glad and rejoice in it!

However, my spirit is somewhat torned between

Rejoicing and feeling down

For today is the last day my bestfriend/ spiritual Mother's presence will be around..

A journey she has to take on her own

Leaving me here to stand firm and be grown.

As the worship was in motion my body was washed with so much emotion..

I tried my hardest to not think this is our last service for awhile

The tears slowly fell but I dare not cry

Wondering yet again why?

Throughout the pastor's sermon we had to tell our neighbor words which she was next to me

I dare not turn my head for my eyes were watery for her to see

Even though I was sad I put a facade on of glee.

Here is this woman sent from God above

Stood by me and gave me her unconditional love

Now those dreadful words: " Goodbye"

Was spoken as she said she call me before she go

What day I don't really know..

So as I sped away that's when I cried

For I felt broken, torn and somewhat dead inside

Because today will be the last time I see her physically

Now I'm writing here broken emotionally

The tears keep coming with each swipe

Wow I didn't think it would have hit me so hard

This I'm speaking to you oh Lord!

What will happen now

I wonder will I be able to make it without her by my side and how?

I have your spirit yes but it was assuring to know she was here

Knowing she won't is something I will struggle to bear

Please God remove any doubt,insecurity or fear!

It's so hard saying goodbye even if it's only for a moment

Now I am able to vent

I will miss all the time we've spent

Now their only memories and all her good deeds

I wish you could stay

So my heart won't feel dismay

But soon you'll be on your way

Forever imprinted in my heart

Because

This is the day...

~ONE OF A KIND~

HOW DO YOU SAY GOODBYE AND NOT CRY?

HOW DO YOU LET GO SO LIFE CAN FLOW?

I NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD COME

THAT OUR FRIENDSHIP AND FELLOWSHIP WOULD BE UNDONE..

I NEVER THOUGHT YOU WOULD LEAVE ME SO UNEXPECTEDLY

MY HEART IS TORN...WITH SADNESS AND GLEE

BECAUSE EVERYTHING WORKED OUT THE WAY WE PRAYED FOR

BUT NOW THE PERSON WHO UNDERSTANDS ME THE MOST IS WALKING OUT THAT DOOR..

THEY SAY IT'S HARD TO SAY GOODBYE, GOD THAT'S DEFINITELY NO LIE!

AS TEARS ESCAPE AS I WIPE THEM AWAY FROM MY EYE..

YOUR JOURNEY IS ONLY FOR A YEAR

SOMETHING I KNOW I CAN BEAR,BUT IT WON'T BE THE SAME WHILE YOUR GONE

SO I DEDICATE THIS SONG

" A SONG FOR MAMA"

YOU MAY NOT BE MY BIOLOGICAL MOM BUT YOU HAVE BEEN MY SPIRITUAL ONE

KEEPING ME IN CHECK WHILE I WANTED TO BE STUBBORN AND HAVE FUN!

SO MUCH TO SAY NOT ENOUGH WORDS TO EXPRESS HOW I ADEQUATELY FEEL TODAY.

AN AMAZING WOMAN OF GOD YOU ARE

NOW IT'S TIME I STAND ON MY OWN WHILE YOU ARE FAR..

TO LIVE BY THE GUIDANCE YOU GAVE TO ME

SO OTHERS CAN FIND THE CHRIST THAT I SEE

I LOVE YOU DEARLY MY CONFIDANT,BEST FRIEND AND SPIRITUAL MOTHER

FOR YOU STOOD BY ME AND LOVED LIKE NO OTHER

PARTING IS SUCH SWEET SORROW, BUT THERE'S A BETTER TOMORROW

THIS IS NOT THE END OF THIS BOND WE HAVE NOW

SO UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN, YOUR WORDS OF WISDOM WILL NOT GO IN VAIN

THANK GOD FOR MAKING OUR PATHS INTERTWINE

~FOR TRULY MS.ERVIN YOU ARE ONE OF A KIND~

Dedicated to an amazing woman of God, you are the epitome of Agape Love. Thank-you for embracing me with your grace,patience,wisdom and mostly love. God bless you richly in all you do and future endeavors.. You will be greatly missed for the time being,but remembered dearly in my heart...

Love Always

Tricia